Ahhhh timing

My timing is always up the poo.
Always.

Why god is nothing simple?

The stupid itch for one thing. I've had a stupid year to think about it and now I think it has all just gotten too much for me. How can I find out if it is mutual? I can't ask. I just can't. If they put it in the magazine I might die of embarrasment. Why did I send it to them? argh.

I can't ask because it is a bitchy thing to do. It is, I'm fucking off back to England and it wouldn't be fair. And furthermore if the itch isn't mutual, I'd end up feeling like a complete fool and then I would never be able to talk to him again. And I like talking to him, I can tell him anything, I can be a heinous bitch and he doesn't mind, he knows I don't really mean it. It's just annoying.

argh.

as for your assumptions, they make asses out of you and me. So there.